December 2010
2010 ends here
so yes,
you are lucky
twenty five
i see the uglies
dancing around
like black swans turning white
they are the uglies
that keep us strong
but we fall
fall hard in this hole
searching for the pretty
the pretty deep inside
that people don’t see
because ugly doesn’t like to hide
it roars like a lion
no cubs indeed
just the growlin of a monster
deep within
i see the light
the one that’ll set me free
...
“i don’t have photoshop all day saying hey”
i was wrong,
once again.
trusting people before i even know them
thinking i love them
and they don’t even know my name
this world isn’t perfect
i’m not even close
but for once
i wanted this
to be close to perfection
so happiness would flourish
in this bad world we live in
i know he’s hiding something
secrets carved into his eyes
colors unseen
but magazines?
...
“‘shh’ is for
‘shall we destroy civilization together?’”
it's called the end. and that's it. the end. no...
vanilla fields
surrounding me
one by one they all
flew
no good byes
just flew
like new born birds
waving at the sky
not to me
but the colorless blue
purple
whatever
they still flew
i just want this to be over,
faker
cold nights and sweat
i guess it’s bad for my eyes to look so close. it’s quite blurry. you know. the world is always in a blur and you can’t even imagine what’s beyond this high school shit. I don’t like it here. it’s cold. so cold. jocks and show offs with their sweaty butts. it’s so funny how they work out in the so called weight room. well one person actually sweats. his...
the noisy list;
I remember writing thousands of names under that list
I felt proud catching them whisper and giggle
then they’ll stop
shocked
their mouths slowly disappearing
nowhere to be found
well today
I don’t have that power anymore
power to make everything seem so much bigger
it was so small
and so little
yet, I felt powerful
that was me
back then
my old life
when I was free
when...
fly with me
there are days
where you heart sinks deep down
so hard to reach
you need a friend
but those days don’t even matter anymore
because you just try to hide it
that feeling
of soreness
and just being naive
confused
this world
needs to stop
it somehow needs to end
superficial
is the word
we are one
stupid
is another word
you’re stupid if you let this world
attack you
your...
go here
i like my head
we play games
night and day
we repeat
we don’t get tired
til my eyes give up
i sleep
i forget
no dreams
just me
and my zzZzzs
altogether
we dance around
til i wake up,
that’s what i hate
my eyes beg my brain to stop
it likes to fly
fly quite high
over rainbows
and cows saying moo
all i can remember is my life and fu***** you
close my eyes
hold my...
the look
do you know me?
the way i know you.
?
hallucinations, maybe?
that you’re looking at me.
or was i just blocking your locker.
red, bright red.
crimson. lips.
ahhh. i see.
leather.
the jacket
whoa, i think it’s studded.
heaven.
huh? what.
i forget
i stop
and then
i kind of stare.
ha lame.
shy guy?
keepin it cool, mah man.
you have a locker after all.
told you, i...
babe,
stop thinking about it.
